(For those who do not know me or my/our current situation please just ignore this thread 
.. Im sorry to take up space) I just wanted to let those of you who keep in contact with me and send me lovely supportive emails that i am sorry for the delay in responding as i am currently going through alot of medical difficulties and am trying to take care of my health and it takes up alot of time from bed rest to hospitals to doctors etc. However, i feel i owe an explanation as i know some of you are concerned and i do not want anyone to worry!
I am actually fighting harder than ever our of sheer desperation for health for myself and my husband but unfortunately my body (and mind-anxiety can make you v. sick) are having difficulties adapating to increased intake yet again (which we thought OUTSIDE of a hospital environment with a very very slowly increased diet this would not happen) So im currently dealing with 'refeeding syndrome' amoungst a lovely combination of other issues which is just a scary process in which i have to be closely monitored especially my blood pressure which is at a constant low-so i am very busy with apointments and such. I am taking some time off from the gym and trying to relax but unfortunately am very dizzy and cannot look at the screen much so im very behind on emails! As alot of you know, my husband has lupus and takes a few shots a week for his r-arthritus which cost us $1700 a dose (i know, huh..) which is usually mostly covered by our insurance and as we are switching over insurances we cannot get these shots (long story) and so it is very taxing on him (heartbreaking...)and on me to watch helplessly as he struggles to walk, and he clicks and aches... I feel terrible about this and felt like i should make a post so i can let everyone who has emailed me know that i am ok and i apologise for not being able to reply... I am so touched by the emails i get and love you all sooo soo much! You make my heart SMILE!
I feel really akward posting this (big gulp) and have put it off for a while now but i feel i owe it just out of appreciation and respect.. I miss you all! Will be back and posting random sillyness soon! Love Love Love! Zee xo
.. Im sorry to take up space) I just wanted to let those of you who keep in contact with me and send me lovely supportive emails that i am sorry for the delay in responding as i am currently going through alot of medical difficulties and am trying to take care of my health and it takes up alot of time from bed rest to hospitals to doctors etc. However, i feel i owe an explanation as i know some of you are concerned and i do not want anyone to worry!I am actually fighting harder than ever our of sheer desperation for health for myself and my husband but unfortunately my body (and mind-anxiety can make you v. sick) are having difficulties adapating to increased intake yet again (which we thought OUTSIDE of a hospital environment with a very very slowly increased diet this would not happen) So im currently dealing with 'refeeding syndrome' amoungst a lovely combination of other issues which is just a scary process in which i have to be closely monitored especially my blood pressure which is at a constant low-so i am very busy with apointments and such. I am taking some time off from the gym and trying to relax but unfortunately am very dizzy and cannot look at the screen much so im very behind on emails! As alot of you know, my husband has lupus and takes a few shots a week for his r-arthritus which cost us $1700 a dose (i know, huh..) which is usually mostly covered by our insurance and as we are switching over insurances we cannot get these shots (long story) and so it is very taxing on him (heartbreaking...)and on me to watch helplessly as he struggles to walk, and he clicks and aches... I feel terrible about this and felt like i should make a post so i can let everyone who has emailed me know that i am ok and i apologise for not being able to reply... I am so touched by the emails i get and love you all sooo soo much! You make my heart SMILE!
I feel really akward posting this (big gulp) and have put it off for a while now but i feel i owe it just out of appreciation and respect.. I miss you all! Will be back and posting random sillyness soon! Love Love Love! Zee xo
*huge hugs* I really hope you are going to be ok and Josh as well, you are missed a lot by me 
i'm a short drive away lol
